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I don't really like to update this because I don't really think it's worth it, but Kevin expressed some frustration at my lack of 'real' updates. So to be brief, I haven't checked my grades for this semester. Cognitive Linguistics was quite a tasking class. I haven't checked to see how my group's grant proposal was received but I'm sure my partner (who holds a Ph.D) held it together.

I have a year left. Still wrapping up a B.A. in Literature and a Minor in Linguistics. The Tallahassee college experience is much less interesting than the New College experience. The New College experience is bullshit for the most part, but it's an experience most should have. It's also really fun. Tallahassee has been nice for reasons other than I intended (i.e. not much music playing). And yet, I knew this would happen from about last March. And as nothing happened over the summer, I knew much wouldn't happen over the next fall and spring. I'm just frustrated that no one would admit to that way back when.Honestly, we're at an age in our lives where we can do anything and should be doing anything. David Cross put it forth so directly when he said "These are the party days." Playing shows with the Walkmen and Man Man were highlights though. Yet, it blows me away that those even happened when I realize just how barely we managed to pull them off. It makes me want to try and make a run at it, just to see what could happen. I'd just want some people to come with me.

In the meanwhile, Golden Throats is a cd that people might want to listen to. Insound.com wants to sell it, if I can ever ship off the first order to them. You can stream it if you'd like here: http://www.imeem.com/dialogs/standaloneplaylist/?p=4FMx-M31

This will most likely be one of the last updates on here. Mainly, I feel a little odd for writing all this. I've been reading alot of Raymond Carver and John Cheever shorts lately. I think about story structure on the way to work, in between thoughts of song structures. I really feel something on the edge of my fingertips. I think it might break soon, but even if it is later, it will break.

nathan and i were talking about how you don't know that getting ready to die until you're dead. you'll never be in a fatal car accident until it's fatal
i talked with a guy who is playing judas iscariot in a movie about the easter story on wednesday morning at 330ish. he said that nobody likes to live right now because the future is too easy and the past is too hard and now is just now and that's too much for people to handle. he had very muscular arms with flaps of skin under his biceps.
i slept alot yesterday. and had a lone dream with tiny mulit-colored tornados and a gas station owned by my older brother and sister.